Thoughts Plait

Lot of times i keep thinking consciously or unconsciously the thoughts that come to my mind. There is absolutely no control over the mind if we dont watch it closely. The other day i was waiting for the system to boot..my mind was filled with the reply i have to give to one escalated email. At that point my eyes fell on the news paper..my thoughts shifted to the horoscope coloumn ( fact or not it gives me some kind of message) after reading it automatically i turned to read about page 3 celebrities and kept wondering what do they do in life. Is it just that they get ready and try to be in news or attend an openning of an art center or attend some politicians meeting ??? automatically started imagining myself in their place....my thoughts again shifted as to how will i look in those jazzy dressing, etiquettes and how will i manage to look ..my dressing, hairstyle etc. The moment i thought about dressing ..my thoughts shifted on various attires once i dreamt of wearing and how i should keep fit ...the moment i thought about keeping fit..my thoughts again shifted exercising and keeping fit...how i used to go for morning walks and how i was afraid of stray dogs ( i blame them for not going on morning walks :-) )...the moment i remembered dogs..i sensed some sort of tension in my mind...and realised that i had to log in with my id and password.
I logged in and thought why i allowed my thoughts to shift from one situation to another??? Why cant i exercise control over my thoughts..??
From then onwards i always try to keep a track of what is going on in my mind. I just think of that situation and leave the rest. Believe me it is not easy!!!!!

I have to always be alert and awake...It is very easy to get carried away in thoughts..though i am a dreamer but my ultimate goal is to achieve the thoughtless stage. Is it possible????

Probably i have to check as to what is going on and atleast think what is required for that moment and that's all. This incident was really funny- the other day i was so obsessed with this idea of checking my thoughts....while i was drafting an email..one of the employee's last name was Kapoor and obviously my thought automatically shifted to Kareena kapoor ( and u know why..;-)...suddenly someone inside me cautioned me that i have to draft the mail and not think of Ms Kapoor as she will no way help me in my work...It works.

I told myself...mission accomplished..the plait of thoughts can be controlled only if i want to...and i also have this conflict in my mind as to ...if i enjoy thinking then why cant i enjoy doing it??? Yes i enjoy thinking..however...after sometime i felt i was going nowhere. There is no meaning in what i was doing...i can finish my lifetime thinking endlessly but what's the use??...what am i doing to myself? How will this benefit me to move on...?
My next focus was on the inner voice...now all my thoughts are on that....