I am Conscious about Unconscious

 A very fascinating fact I love about myself! 

One day, I met an online acquaintance to understand DNA level cleansing (???????) and yes its a possibility!! The very science i understood was a strong /super strong emotion gets into the blood stream and viola!!!!! my future generation gets it as a reward/punishment.

Now, As I write I remembered that the Realized* Saint's family gets uplifted for 7 generations!!! and if i relate to this its a DNA Cleanse in GenZ/ABCD language.

What little things I can do to ensure not to react to my Unconscious DNA self and How and WHY I should not create damaging patterns for next generations...(not sure who all got my blood , lets start with mosquitoes :)

Now, I know that I am conscious about my Unconscious self and everytime there is a "eureka" moment i know its the Unconscious self discovery

I realized that I am conscious about my unconscious state and decide what to fight and what to ignore to ensure no more passing on so called accumulation

I ask myself when a particular feeling/emotion is STRONG ..is it worth is? Is it my strong want? Is it ego? and most importantly is it REQUIRED????

Let me do my bit in a way that I understand myself and live a conscious lifestyle for next generations and during this journey will try not to leave any footprint and stay in homeostasis state and l choose peace over anything.

NOW

AI's feedback and  corrected my post for common public who goes by rules and for those who are  less crazier than me. ( I do not completely agree with this though....)

Conscious About My Unconscious

One fascinating thing I have discovered about myself is that I have become conscious of my unconscious.

It all started with a conversation with an online acquaintance about DNA-level healing. Whether every idea is scientifically proven or not, it opened a door to a fascinating subject called epigenetics—the possibility that our experiences may influence how our genes are expressed, and perhaps, in some cases, even affect future generations.

That thought stayed with me.

Then I remembered something I had heard for years—that when a realized saint attains liberation, seven generations of the family are uplifted. Whether I interpret that spiritually or symbolically, I can't help wondering: could this be another way of saying that transformation doesn't stop with us? That the way we live today echoes into tomorrow?

That question changed the way I look at myself.

Instead of asking, "Why did I react like that?" I now ask:

• Was that reaction truly mine, or was it an old pattern?
• Was it a genuine need, or was it my ego speaking?
• Is this emotion worth strengthening?
• If I keep repeating this pattern, what am I passing on—not just through my words and actions, but perhaps even through the way I live?

I may never know who carries a part of my biological legacy... although I'm fairly certain a few mosquitoes have! 😄

Humour aside, the real question is this:

Can I choose awareness over automatic reaction?

Every time I experience a small "Eureka!" moment, I feel as though another unconscious pattern has become visible. Whether it comes from my upbringing, my biology, my conditioning, or something even deeper doesn't matter as much as the fact that I can now choose differently.

My goal isn't to become perfect.

My goal is to leave fewer negative patterns behind than I inherited.

To live consciously.
To respond instead of react.
To understand myself a little better each day.

And perhaps, in doing so, leave a gentler inheritance for the generations that follow while living in greater balance—what science calls homeostasis and many spiritual traditions simply call inner peace

AI created its own DNA and looks like mine has lesser impact  

Reeling on Reels…trust me!

 Aaah..longtime!

I enjoy watching reels and I think I spend almost an hour in my day on these. They make me laugh, make me wonder, sometimes expresses my own thoughts which I would have never dared to, they calm me and gives me global fake and real news.

I started to respect this platform as I see millions of people boldly put themselves out there and post it.  Uncles dancing to Chiranjeevi steps, housewives singing, dancing and they truly believe they are another Sridevi or Madhuri. I really love them and have respect from the bottom of my heart. Some are earning well (Dignity Of Labour). It’s an art, becoming a profession.

Karaoke short forms calm me , beautiful forgotten songs are played, we get to see original stage shows….OMG what not! Byte sized learning,Discovery of new places…it has it all.

I never ever have or will have this courage to put myself out there because I am my own critic and strongly know and  judge myself for my under performance ( yeah! I did try dancing to few steps Bahom mein chale aaa…….)

So people!…no guilt…watch and enjoy as long as you are not a Mark or Melon where delegates are waiting for you OR  forgot a  migration OR missed your daily lessons/practice.

Anything too much is bad from eating, drinking, gaming, worrying, judging tooo.

Keep up with the World! Appreciate stuff you couldn’t do and finally align with yourself.

Still Reeling on Gods talking to us with the help of AI:)

Who should I listen to?

Should we listen to MIL?
Should we listen to her relatives?
Ofcourse the outcome is same but
the journey is different



Should we listen to Husband?
Should we listen to Parents?
Ofcourse the outcome is same but
the journey is different



Should we listen to self?
Should we listen to experience?
Ofcourse NOT there is hell lot of difference
life's outcome is never same



Should i do what I want?
Should i do what others want?
Ask me after 1 week and
I will tell you what happened!!!!!


What happened??????
Never ever I imagined...
Things change and shape up
when you are neutral and
let the nature React


What actually happened
was how everyone wanted..
Things that I learnt is to
keep your calm and
without raising a false alarm!!!!

MAD MAD THURSDAY

Got up with a terrible dream!!!!
Ended up listening to ...

1. Shania Twain

a. Still the one
b. That dont impress me much
c. From this moment
d. Youve got a way!
e. Endless Love

2.Bryan Adams

a. Everything I do

3.Savage Garden-

a.Truly Madly deeply

with great guilt   ... ended up listening to

Sudha Raghunathan

1. Vishamakara Kannan

Nithyashree Mahadevan

2. Manasa sancharare
3. Bho Shambho

MD Ramanathan

4. Muthuswami Navagraha Keerthanas


GOD!!!!!!!!! crazy day seems to be music is the only medicine now

Wish list......Harry Almighty part II

Self-pity is the worst thing ever...instead Indulge

 

What if you do not have now

 

Create a wish list and love

 

This is what I  want …

 

Lots of Bonsai’s instead will adjust with made of clay/play dough

Crystals, Spheres, Triangles, Prisms…what not…as many as possible

Hell lot of mini fountains ..just want to listen to the sound of continuous water flow

Greens around, mini green forest in the back yard

Brick walls/thatched huts/old style kitchen

Mud utensils

Smell of mud

Walk in the woods

Silence

Recently heard sound of earth’s rotation from NASA….fell in love

Explore and Collect pebbles/stones/dried flowers in rain forests

Bonfire

Gaze at stars and only stars

 

Wish to fulfill one by one all by self..

 

Let me see if this also changes someday? 

 

 

Cortisol at peak .......coming soon

Feelings & Emotions


Life has changed completely and yes I allowed it to change
Friends have changed
Emotions are tearing apart and nerves are breaking
Throat is choked, unable to swallow life's joke
Eagerly waiting to move on but,
Time doesn't pass on ..
Nowhere to go
No one to hear
Here I come my old blog
To contemplate on what's wrong ...

I am Back...without a bang

I am Back...there is so much to share and realize. Let me stop here and contemplate!!!

Live and Let Live or Give & Take

Every individual has some basic expectations from the other person irrespective of relationship like friend, spouse, blood relations etc.

Some will clearly get what their want or maybe they are able to communicate clearly or it can be anything. However people say that every relationship should have this “Give and Take” policy.

The biggest question in everyone’s life is what one should GIVE and TAKE?
Every person is unique and anything overdone as in Over GIVING OR over TAKING is also injurious.

I am currently trying to find out this Giving and taking in life, to what extent I should compromise willingly and to what extent I can expect as I don’t want to LIVE/GIVE a diplomatic life neither I expect to TAKE it that way.

Let me know if anyone has practical answers without any gyan sessions.

Let me think to lead a good life………………………To be continued……

Never Imagined

So.. I never imagined that one day I would go back to Tanjore Village and live in the huts

Never imagined that one day I would swing on a wooden plank tied to a mango tree and sing all my favourite songs

Never imagined that I put my feet in a temple tank look alike swimming pool and just listen to the sounds of the birds for hours together

Never imagined that I would get this close to the nature hidden from the outside world



Never imagined that I would take a walk on the village streets till my sandals could not take anymore

Never imagined that I would learn the making of a bronze statues

Never imagined that one day I would accompany a potter and make a mud lamp

Never imagined that there is so much skill hidden from the outside world



Never imagined that one day I would eat delicious “Stand idly” with Vadakari

Never imagined that reading a book under a tree shade will give so much pleasure

Never imagined that hanging around the courtyard was so interesting

Never imagined that there is so much peace hidden from the outside world



Never Imagined that I would read Aug 15 1947 news paper

Never imagined that I would one day use the manual phone

Never imagined that I would understand and look at the Tanjore paintings

Never Imagined that there is so much treasure hidden from the outside world



Never Imagined that the noise made by the huge trees was so melodious

Never imagined that I would pluck a rare fruit from a lemon tree

Never Imagined that I would see beautiful mud carvings and stones

Never imagined that India had so much treasure and skill hidden from the outside world



Now I imagine myself here coming again and again

Now I imagine that the best things in life are closer to you

Now I imagine how to lead a peaceful life

I don’t want to imagine that I need to live in the outside world and

I imagine coming back to the same place again and again

So...Life is going to be like this!!!

Have we ever wondered about power of words??

Words are more powerful than thoughts.
Thoughts are many, unending,
Few cross our minds
Few stay for a while and
Few turn into a cloud and rain in the form of words

Any thought which stays with us for more than a day may form into a word and the power of word will manifest into an action.

I feel it all depends on the intensity of the thought process, the more intensely you utter a word the faster it manifests into an action.
Once it manifests into an action - you will realize that this is what once you have asked for ( you remember or don’t)

We seldom understand this concept and talk about destiny etc but destiny is all about your actions…words…thoughts of past..( reverse gear)

Let me take an example, a negative one for a quick understanding ..– “Curse and blessing”…this comes in all forms…we think that this used to exist before during sages period etc but the fact is it does exist everywhere within us as well

WE must have heard about curses in olden days- once the word is uttered then there is no taking back , the power it carries with it is immense and will take a form of action. People search for alternate remedies for it

The same amount of frustration if not expressed will definitely effect the other person on a mental level but never takes a form.( telepathy – not sure :))

Same is the case for blessings- You need to utter it.

So people!!!! what I am concluding here per my experience is to watch out your thoughts and exercise caution while expressing them as you know for sure they will take a form someday.

Yeah! There is another concept of Unspoken words which works…let me think.

Memorable quotes

Nostalgia...

Elizabeth Bennet: Do you deny it, Mr.Darcy? That you seperated a young couple who loved each other, exposing your friend to the censure world of caprice and *my sister* to derision and dissapointed hopes, involving them both in acute misery of the worst kind and...
Mr. Darcy: I do not deny it.
Elizabeth Bennet: How could you do it?
Mr. Darcy: Because I believed your sister was indifferent.
Elizabeth Bennet: Indifferent?
Mr. Darcy: I observed them most carefully and realized his attachment was far deeper than hers.
Elizabeth Bennet: That's because she's shy!
Mr. Darcy: Bingley to was modestly persuaded that she didn't feel strongly.
Elizabeth Bennet: Because you suggested it!
Mr. Darcy: I did it for his own good!
Elizabeth Bennet: My sister hardly shows her true feelings to me.

Elizabeth Bennet: I suppose his... fortune had some bearing?
Mr. Darcy: No, believe me I wouldn't do your sister the dishonour it was just merely suggested...
Elizabeth Bennet: What was?
Mr. Darcy: It was clear that an advantageous marriage would be the worst option possible...
Elizabeth Bennet: Did my sister give that impression?
Mr. Darcy: No! No, there was, however, the matter of your family...
Elizabeth Bennet: Our want of connection? Mr.Bingley did not seem to object...
Mr. Darcy: No, it was more than that.
Elizabeth Bennet: How, sir?
Mr. Darcy: It was the lack of propriety shown by your mother, your three younger sisters, and even, on the occasion, your father.
[thunder clash, Elizabeth is hurt]
Mr. Darcy: Forgive me. You and your sister I must exclude from this.
Elizabeth Bennet: And what about Mr.Wickham?
Mr. Darcy: Mr.Wickham?
Elizabeth Bennet: What excuse can you give for your behavior toward him? He told of his misfortunes and yet you treat him with sarcasm.
Mr. Darcy: So this is your opinon of me? Thank you. Perhaps these offences might have been had your pride not been hurt by scruples about our relationship. Am to rejoice in the inferiority of your recent circumstances?
Elizabeth Bennet: And those are the words of a gentleman? From the moment I met you your aroggance and conceit and your selfish disdain for the feelings of other made me realize that you are the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.


Mr. Darcy: So this is your opinion of me. Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have be overlooked had not your pride been hurt by my honesty...
Elizabeth Bennet: My pride?
Mr. Darcy: ...in admitting scruples about our relationship. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?
Elizabeth Bennet: And those are the words of a gentleman. From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realize that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.

Mr. Darcy: Forgive me, madam, for taking up so much of your time.

Same pinch from BC to AD.....

Birth to death the process is same, food is same, lifestyle is same, and everyone grows from 0 to till date years. Bloody the organs are also made of same tissues n stuff.
Scenarios are same from BC to AD.
Similar situations like education, play, work, love, relationships, home etc can be found in 90% of the population.Life/situations are similar to everyone since BC to AD….i have observed that there is no escape in anything by anyone then
Why are we not learning????
What is life trying to teach us??
Why there is so much confusion (if they think so) in life?

I realized-ing that it is only that i want to be different from others. Situations from birth to death to any baby is similar and even the decisions they make in their life are also similar.
Everything what i have experienced or experiencing, will experience was gone through by some millions of people or rather everyone then what exactly am I doing???

Life teaches everyone, mind you in its smartest way but then I am not willing to learn/unlearn until i have experienced happy or sad situations.

What I have observed that life is teaching everyone, is there a way to say that"I already know this ….I want/don’t want to experience this situation”. There cannot be a “situation free” day in my life but what I felt was that once i have a general understanding on regular life( eat, work, pray, hobbies, party, play and sleep ) then i better start thinking on what is that different or a new thing that I am doing/can do? Or do I want to continue this lifestyle? What is wrong in living like this?
Nothing is wrong but yes nothing is right as well.



Will this help us to evolve as a person??
Evolve????
Imagine a person with the above understanding might have less reactions (coz he knows why and what) less emotional (coz he knows), less attachments etc….less baggage with him. Just like a drop of water on a lotus leaf. He does everything without actually getting into anything. (Extremely different!)
May be at least then the other part of the brain might get a chance to work!!!!!!!!!!

The + and - of life

I wanted to share an interesting random thought which i got today.
I really wanted to spend some quality time with my loved ones but then got so busy with work and other activities, i just couldn't (though i badly needed). The very thought of sitting before them gives me so much energy, i started thinking that the kind of energy you derive or get just by meeting your loved one...it is just that extra proteins u gain.
Most of the times we tend to like some people and cannot stand few at all. Why all this happens?
My crazy brain started thinking .....i came to a decent conclusion that when i am with a specific person there is some kind of trasmission happens , exchange of energy, or an aura which surrounds every human being. We can call it negative or positive energy.
So my point is when you are with a person and if his/her aura suits you then you will like and tend to be with them. Similarly u cant stand few at all for all the above reasons.
The question is " Is your energy/aura positive or negative??"

Rewind

"What happened to you? Is everything ok with you? " shouted my friend on the other line.
I got somany calls since 2 days, my friends called and checked if something was wrong. I blamed it on my recent posts.
Finally i understood that people have a set opinion and expect you to behave the way as they perceived you. A common feedback i got was that i changed, my expressions, thoughts etc changed. They liked my mental stuff more than the general things i started posting recently.
Hmmm.....i am trying to figure it out....what am i doing, where am i heading to and what am i up to. Is this growth or something else? Or i am trying ot meet someone's expectations here?
The journey of my thoughts have a taken a left/right but not straight i guess. If this is what i am then i better start to forsee the possible halt.
I think its time to think and get back to my shell again!

Wah! wah! Irshad.....

Today i somehow got into a mood of ghazal's, sher's an shayari....
This is just a jhalak ....

"Hasi ne labo par Thirakna Chod diya
Khwabon ne palkon par aana chod diya
Nahi aati ab tho Hitchkitchiyan bhi
Shayad aap ne hame yaad karne chod diya"

"Usko Chaha bhi tho Izhar karna nahi aaya
Kat gayi umar saari hume pyar karna nahi aaya
Usne maangi bhi tho Judai mangi aur
Hum the ki hume inkar bhi karna na aaya!!!!!!!!!

Heavy!!!!!!!!! i guess ..along with shayari..one needs a great company to "hic" along. The best part of shayari is not everyone can tell neither can enjoy.
I recommend everyone one should once in a while indulge in shayari and keep doing wah! wah!

Aaadab!

Wax Models.....Oooooh!!

I did check lot of celebrities wax models being unveiled....i loved them all. I have a different opinion when i checked out the wax model's. Definately they must have done a brain storming session before selecting a particular picture or a pose.
According to my opinion,the snap to be choosen should be the celebrity's most important peak achievement and snap should be recorded. That mement has to get captured and should be treasured in the way of wax model etc and not any other moment.
Is anyone listeneing????

Dimaag Khharaab!!!

Yeh....kya th0 bhi **** time chalra...itna dimaag kharaab time maine zindagi mein kahi nai dekha baap!!!! Jisko dekho sab pakao log hee milte...koi bhi khush nai aur rehna nai chahte shaayad unko maloomeech nai ki khush kaisa rehna chahiye. Kya tima airelabaap????
Zindagi mein sab kuch nai milta logaan usko samajhnekeliye poori zindagi lete hai.....ittaeech nai aur mast rehta jab logaaan kuch cheezon ke peeche bhaagte rehte...woh bhaaga daud mein kya tho bhi hotha rehta....
Kya hai ki !!!
Hmmm howzzat???...i am yet to watch the movie angrez to become a true hyderabadi...probably post Angrez will get better....Hydbadi's! pardon me for my language i failed miserably in my first attempt...will try to better it next time till then
Khuda hafeez ( am not sure abt the spelling but i know how to pronounce:-)))

I love .........

• To walk
• Expressions
• To laugh ( till i see my own tears :-)) )
• To watch first ray of sun ( Superb piercing but pleasant light )
• The cresent moon
• Greenery ( someday will own a nursery)
• Smell of Night queen - the flower
• Training ( that is my strength )
• My work
• To develop myself
• To be with my friends
• Travelling
• To learn new things
• To converse
• My wardrobe
• To play Scrabble
• To play in the Sea
• To watch stars in the night
• To read
• Astronomy
• Mountains
• My childhood toys ( Most of them are dolls , no Barbie dolls then !)
• My first mobile ( I treasured it )
• To have fun
• To listen
• Being fit n healthy
• Looking after my people
• To help
• Children
• To watch black and white movies
• Myself ( to be myself )

What do you love doing?

Die another day

Bah! ....today! .......if you are interested ( Die another day) Phew!

• Came to office...system took some 20 mins to boot..thanks to our technology..i quickly glanced through the paper and read about World bank thinking to review the ban on Satyam...i thought "policies are made for deviations".
• Checked the mails...there again some desperate souls trying to reach me over emails for quick resolutions, i understood that people are lazy enough to type and send in required formats ( Only they know as to why they are being paid).........
• Suddenly felt that something is wrong..it is time to grab a quick meal...it is already 1.00pm thanks to our work culture, we are allowed to eat at our workstations ( infact our lunchroom can accomodate not more than 4 people)
• I got motivated to see that only few hours are left to leave...:-))
• I overheard a small serious conversation more intense than Obama's speech....a lady was explaining on how she managed to come to work inspite of attending a late night party..what was she wearing..where she bought etc etc..i Sighed! It makes all kinds of people to make this world a better place.
• I laughed thoroughly....infact i enjoyed the conversation too with my kinda humour.
• Lot of unattended things..i thought why the hell am i doing so much of work ?? but then ended up doing it and this frustation made me type aggresive mails on escalations....I patted myself!
• At 4.00 not felt like working...wanted to go home n watch some black n white movie...
• GIA is one word which i thought will never forget. Lot of work has to be redone in the last min though you are updated and online. Dont even try n understand GIA..you will have sleepless nights!!!!
• 6.20pm...Aroma of hot Samosa...........ofcourse i relished!
• Looked at my colleagues..none of their faces reflected energy...i understood how awful i looked...
• Sent some reminders ( best part of my job :-D)
• Did not shut down my comp ( I want to save my half an hour nextday)..looked at my watch....7.20pm....

Iwould like to share general gyan sessions...coz this is my space where i can vent out...and clear the gutter in my life.